all about her.
her name: Nur Hidayah

her birthdate:
10 December 1986




listening pleasure.


Music



darlings.
Sunday, April 18, 2010 @ 4:30 AM.

These past weeks has been smooth sailing for us. Alhamdulillah. One thing I've learned and will always be holding on to is,
"Understand each others differences and embrace it".

Tuesday, April 13, 2010 @ 4:56 AM.

one week i'm down, following week i'm ok. and now i'm down again. What's up with these flu viruses. Go fly somewhere else please. Chet!


I'm feeling contented with my work nowadays, all geared up for PTC. Started the developmental milestones documentation and all. I can do it and I will. [:

Monday, April 5, 2010 @ 4:50 AM.


For the past half hour, I have been browsing through this blog of mine. And one thing that is apparent was that I was frequently sick the past 2 years. However, this year, thank God, it turned out to be better. I am stronger physically and mentally. Much so that I managed to go to work still with mild fever, blocked nose and cough. Superwoman. heh.

I realized that I am able to control myself from doing things that is not of ultimate importance like taking annual leaves (I've only taken one day leave so far :D), medical leaves and the most critical one, withdrawing money from ATMs. Just like I said to Wahida, "This (ATM) machine is evil. It tempts us to withdraw money when we have to save it" haha.

And yes I'm proud of myself. Guess I've grown wiser.


Saturday, April 3, 2010 @ 9:11 PM.




Every month, it has been a routine for us to express our love for each other. We reflected on the good times and the not-so-good times we had for the previous month.




And whenever this happen, I will always be left speechless. I don't know what to say in particular, on how to express my love for him. I've always believe, in love, you have to feel it. Not neccessary say it. But then again, when I gave it a thought, I find that it is important to say it to realize it.




A music lover myself, I enjoyed listening to songs that somehow able to relate to how I felt at that moment of time. One day, as I was listening to the song, "Flaws and All" by Beyonce Knowles, I began to listen intently to the lyrics. An amazing songwriter she is, I would like to use her words to express my love for him.




I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you



I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day



I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love




I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that




I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean




I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all




And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you




Don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all




And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you

Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 5:40 AM.

Its 2010. And its my first entry for the year. March i know. But better late than never. heh.


Work has been good.

Family has been great.

Fiance has been awesome.


People often say that the engagement period will not be as easy as it seems. But so far, Alhamdulillah. It has been fine. Although it is not as smooth sailing, still we managed well. Isn't it darling? heh.


We began to understand each other more and and although the phone calls or the meet ups has reduced, still the love keeps growing. Chey. haha.


To my dearest husband-to-be, Wa sayang sama lu lah!

Friday, December 18, 2009 @ 4:31 PM.
Dearest blog,

Sorry for abondoning you for these while. I've been busy with work, family and lifelong commitment. So please forgive me okay? heh :)

So this is the rundown of what i've kept myself with,


1. K2 Graduation concert


Yes my K2s have finally graduated. I am definitely going to miss them most. 3 years bitter sweet relationship with them have made me grow as a person as well as a professional. They taught me to be more firm and discipline in my actions. They taught me to smile even when datelines are screaming at me. They taught me to appreciate the little things that happen in life. I'm grateful for that. To all of you my friends, as what I've always reminded you, Be a person who is remembered in the future because of good things not bad. From the bottom of my heart, Thank you!


2. A 23rd to me


A year added. Definitely I've grown more mature in terms of advises, encouragements and decision making. And it is this year that I realize that I don't need that WOW birthday celebration. I don't need that birthday presents. All I need is to spend time with my family and dearest fiance, doing what we enojoyed most. And I get it. Thank you!


3. Our Wedding Affairs


Heard that wedding bells recently? I've actually made my down payment for my bridal service. It's been months since I've been surfing online, getting the scoops, accolades, complaints from almost all the malay bridal services available. However, my sis-in-law recommended me Our Wedding Affairs which she hired for her wedding. So one fine day, fiance and I went to the showroom at Upper Serangoon and view the packages availabe for us. Exclusive yet affordable. Of the same standard of the more popular malay bridal services but yet the prices are just fantabulous. All I'm left with now is the catering and deco which I will hand that over to mum. Definitely, So So Excited!



4. Michael Jackson Tribute Concert-Joby Rogers


As a belated birthday celebration, my cousin and I decided to watch this tribute concert. It was pouring heavily during the evening and yes we were semi drenched by the time we reach the indoor stadium. And in case you didn't know, we got the standing tickets and we are right in front of the stage. How wonderful is that. It was a nice feeling. Definitely after so long not attending gigs, concerts and parties. To my dearest cousin, Thank you for making the belated celebration a memorable one. Loves.




5. First Campus Dinner and Dance


This year will be the first time Sengkang centre making the appearance in the company's event. I was the one being the mastermind of entering the talentime competition that was organised by the management. And so, we chose the singer and the dancers, went for the audition and we are through to the finals! yeehaa! And its happening tonight. As to what we are going to perform, it's going to be reveal only tonight. Heh. Super super excited now. Watch out First Campus, My First Skool Sengkang is going to rock the Suntec Convention tonight!!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009 @ 7:59 AM.

Name: Nur Hidayah Bte Hassan

Status: Engaged to Muhammad Aminur




Yes. I've moved on to a new phase of my life. Frankly speaking, I feel like there isn't much change. But when I take a closer look at the details. It makes a difference. There's alot of those little loopholes here and there that I need to settle. And there's the other part of adjustments that I need to suit.




It's almost a month now and I must say that fiance and I are definitely freaked out about the preparations already. 1 and a half to 2 years is not long. In fact it is quite a short period of time for a decent wedding prepaprations.




Within this month, we've went to wedding exhibitions, bridal shops and browse through sites and magazines/brochures for wedding packages and such. We also sat and talked about finance and apartment matters. So as for now, if I were a memory card, my capacity would have reached 90%.




We tried not to get so tensed up and tried our very best to enjoy every moments we had together. In fact, I feel that our relationship has in fact has turned for the better after the engagement. Alhamdulillah.




To my dearest fiance,


Tough times we will have to face

but no matter what, together we will sail.


Love you as always. =)

Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 5:06 AM.
Long time no update. so here it goes. im left with about a month. just a month. if i say that im not bothered at all by the situation, im a liar. i definitely got caught up the stress syndrome. from the engagement, to work, to my personal life. have got me shrinking. down for most of the days last month which caused me 5 kilos of weight slashed from my already skinny body :(.

And when i took a cab home this afternoon, the taxi driver said, "Just be happy. This is life. There's good and there's bad.".Yes uncle, I'll heed your advise.

Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 5:14 AM.

First and foremost, takziah kepada keluarga Arwah Atuk Taib and Arwah bf 's Uncle. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. amin.


Boyfriend is away for today. recieved a call from his uncle from Malacca saying that another of his uncle had just passed away :( and that's the first time i heard him cry. although i don't know the uncle or even saw him before, i know its hard for the family.


I missed boyfriend very much. although, ive been away most of the day to Sentosa tanning and swimming and chilling but i did not enjoy much. in my mind was still him and that scent of his that i could smell everywhere i go. paranoid. maybe. this is the first time that we're away from each other. even for a day i can barely cope.


i miss miss miss him. and tonight, im scared of lonely...


I'm in this fight and I'm swinging and my arms are getting tired

I'm trying to beat this emptiness but I'm running out of time

I'm sinking in the sand and I can't barely stand

I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely


I try to be patient but I'm hurting deep inside

And I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at night

And I can't find my way, won't you lead me home?

'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely


And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wall

And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own

And I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe

When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely, I'm scared of lonely


I cry at night 'cause my baby's too far to be by my side

To wipe away these tears of mine so I hold my pillow tight

To imagine you I'll stretch your hand looking for mine

'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely


I need your break when nobody is around

'Cause I'm tired of this emptiness

I think I'm drowning, I can't be lonely

And I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 5:25 AM.
First and foremost, sorry for not updating. its just that busypluslazy mode again.
been superbly busy these past few weeks making all the preparations, this, that and everything else.
oh yes. PTC is rolling again. and the KIC and the K2 Graduation Concert and its next year again. fast isnt it? like really, i still remember how id celebrated my new year with bf and now June is coming again. Gosh.
this are all random i know. just trying to get the drift to blog again but sadly enough, it failed. no ideas. booohoooo.
oooh and October is drawing near.