it's up and running again! HURRAH!!!
beneath all the non-updates, sadness, anger, stress prevail.
ALOT has happened the past one or two months. full of miseries *note: miseries NOT mysteries* unfolds.
and to start it all off, my centre FAILED QCC. miserable numero uno. how depressing can it get when you know that you have worked your asses off just so to uphold the centre's name, reputation and standards. and how devastating it is if all these happens on the eve of Hari Raya. thanks to the you know who for spoiling my entire raya mood alrite. *grrrr*
so with all the low morale going on for the QCC, most of the staffs decided to rethink our own career path. to really reflect on whether we still want to continue on the quest of being an educator. it is a tough job. no joke. having to deal with loads of matters surrounding you for the benefit of the children under your care.
with all these i started to think about the enjoyable times i had while still studying in poly working part time basically under the customer service line. i figured that the drive that makes me want to go to work almost everyday is due to the know that i will meet different kinds of people and at the same time understand the need to deal with different challenges each of them brings. when i bridge that to my current job, i see it as facing the same challenges each day which, for me it is draining and definitely exhausting. having to face the same disciplinary problems each day is tiring. really.
so i decided to divert my career path a little to teaching enrichments. found one and was ready to spur on but it has no benefits whatsoever. more like 'got work got pay no work no pay' *grrrrr* that is misery part duex. irritating.
and the utmost one was my mood swings. its really like SH*T ok. it keeps on swinging and swinging and swinging. i got angry super easily lah. over smallest tiniest things or matters also i can get angry. super F*CKED up. *grrr* the pinacle misery of all.
now for the MYSTERY part. been having weird dreams lately which makes me wake up umpteen times during my sleep. just weird. which gives me headache. *grrrrrr*
oh wells, i hope it gets *better in time~~*
my wishlist for now is actually to go for a holiday somewhere. but dunno where. but in the mean time just want to spend the most and fun times with my loved ones.
Labels: time for a break