too much to handle. everything is getting out of hand. too stressed up. im physically drained and mentally exhausted.
being to stay at work for 12-15 hrs every other day was super tiring. it just go on and on. the more you do, the more things piled up, screaming at you to get it done. from Parent-Teacher Conference to the Quality Care Check. and next in line comes the Kids-in-Charge. the light at the end of the tunnel seemed so far away. it makes me breathless.
i need a break. tried to squeeze in time for family, love and girlfriends. but how am i suppose to when i dont even get the 8 hours of sleep i needed each day? how am i suppose to commit to those when i dont even have the spare time to do something i love? how am i suppose to fulfill all those when i have work to be brought back just so i could complete them? i dont even have the freaking time for myself.
sometimes i feel like running away from it all. but these are my responsibilities. and i have to be professional to deal with it. and due to the built-up stress, love and i have been quarelling. i hate it when these happens. everything just affects my mood. i could be all hyped-up at one moment and just all-frustrated on the next. it's just one after another and another and another. just cant think straight. mind not thinking. body not responding. my soul is dead.
Labels: i just want it to be over.