all about her.
her name: Nur Hidayah

her birthdate:
10 December 1986




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darlings.
Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 11:04 PM.
hey hey you you.

before i start on my quest for the observations and updating of progress reports, i shall summarize my day.

today is my first day paying back my days where i didn't get to fast last year. (so all you men from mars better appreciate that you don't have to skip your fast every year. so you don't have any excuse to skip any of the days. *roll eyes*) and yeah. it was quite a struggle actually. still i know im strong to go through it all. almost 1 day down. 7 days more to go. Jia you.

work was fine. teach my class in the morning, later have to helped out in the Nursery class till i'm off work. i just love working this morning shift as I get to got off early. who wouldn't right. although it's very pressurizing in the morning. and having night mares of parents who are always at the door when the clock strikes 7. *chuckles*

i guess that's all for now. will update more later at night if i have the time. otherwise, let's call it a day.

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@ 6:10 AM.
im feeling vibed. i just finished reading a library book called "Lost for Words" written by Lorelei Mathias. Hurrah! it's about an editorial assistant who was falling in love with a book she got out from a slush pile. and romance started to happened when the attached Daisy starting to fall in love with her workie Elliot without even knowing.

well back to the REAL life, granny was discharged from hospital around noon. so i went straight to aunt's place after work. sadly enough, grany couldn't come back to my place at the moment as dad, mum and me are busy working and my sis busy with schooling. still i'll drop by aun't place everyday after work from now on. good thing i am on my morning shift this month. (and yes, fyi, i wasn't late for work. i even took the bus. Double Hurrah!)

and yes, i've made my decision love. and i just can't wait for everything to be in place. *winks*

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Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 7:20 AM.
yest didnt meet love because i have to rush home as granny's sick. she would occassionally shout for help and when we asked what happened, she said that she sees that the whole room is tumbling down on her. this occurrances happens more frequently as the hour stretched.

my sis-in-law came and brought along with her the blood pressure meter. true enough her blood pressure was high. and so my sis-in-law asked her to go to the hospital. after like 15 minutes of coaxing and begging, she finally agreed. called the ambulance and it arrived around 5-10 minutes later.

all, around 8 of us, (my family with some aunts, uncles and cousins) tailed the ambulance to the hospital. it was quite long before the doctor approached us and reviewed on his observations. granny was dehydrated and that her blood pressure is higher than normal. as granny has a past history of stroke, the doctor said it would be better if she stayed for further observations.

after around an hour, doctor requested for granny to be admitted so that further checks could be done. and so she was admitted at around 0200 hours. i left the hospital around 0300 hours then slept the rest of the dark sky.

got up pretty early today by a call from love. initially, i agreed to meet him so as to make up for the cancellation the day before. however, my mind was not at ease. all im thinking about was my granny. so i rang him up and cancelled it. sorry love.

reached hospital around 1400 hours and stayed until 2000 hours when i took my leave to meet love for dinner. and now here i am blogging. and oh when i signed in my msn, love leaves me a message:

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:29 PM:
baby,maybe this week luck is not at our side,but its ok,maybe god want to see hw patient we are....

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:30 PM:
whatever it is,u nid not feel guilty,coz i understand ur grandma is sick...

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:31 PM:
no matter what,for next week,it's ur turn to plan where we will be going....

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:31 PM:
i reali miss u so much....

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:31 PM:
i reali love u so much.....

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:32 PM:
muack!!

muhd sent 22/6/2008 1:32 PM:
bye love!!

and i love you too love. thank you for understanding and sorry if somehow i raised my voice at you last night when you called. much love.

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Saturday, June 21, 2008 @ 5:19 AM.
was supposed to reach school at around 10-ish. however, im just too tired. though i had an early sleep the night before, my body still scream 'Rest' to me. although love had called me around 9 to wake me up, my eyelids are just too heavy to be lift up. heh.

forced myself up around 930 and went straight to shower and got myself dressed up and proceed on to the clinic to get my granny her monthly medication. gosh it was a long queue. before proceeding to work, i got lunchies for Mabel and myself.

once my brunch was over, its workworkwork up till 630pm. its like one after another. non-stop-hits of computer-printing-laminating-cutting-sorting-displaying.

didn't able to accompany Mabel to IKEA though and sadly enough im not able to meet love.

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Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 6:05 AM.
Abah,
seorang bapa yang ku sayangi suatu ketika dahulu
seorang bapa yang ku puja suatu ketika dahulu
seorang bapa yang ku dampingi suatu ketika dahulu

Abah,
seorang bapa yang penyayang suatu ketika dahulu
seorang bapa yang penuh dengan senyuman suatu ketika dahulu
seorang bapa yang memeluk ku suatu ketika dahulu

Abah,
seorang bapa yang kini jarang berada di rumah
seorang bapa yang kini sinar dan seri mukanya tidak kelihatan
seorang bapa yang rasanya sungguh jauh jasadnya

Abah,
kini ku mulai rasakan perhubungan kita seperti langit dan bumi
sering kelihatan antara satu sama lain
tetapi tidak pernah akan rapat walau hanya seketika

Perasaan banci dan dendam mulai terasa di benak kalbuku
hanya akan ku doakan agar Tuhan memberimu Hidayah supaya lurus perjalanamu

17 March 2008
1800 hours

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@ 5:38 AM.
quite a hectic day at work. although there's only 10 kids who turned up today, still it feels like full house. with the screaming and shouting, it really gets on my nerves. my colleague's too.
oh wells.

TGIF. finally the weekend's here. the long awaited Saturday is arriving. going to work still to polish up my Term 3 curriculum. later, accompanying Mabel to IKEA to get some K2 stuffs. then forward on to meeting love in the evening.

been keeping myself busy with the observations and progress reports for the coming Parent-Teacher Conference (PTC). didn't have time to grab a bite even during my kids' nap time. working the late shift (930am-7pm) for a whole month is super damn tiring. and damn i've to work on the earliest shift (7am-430pm) for the upcoming month starting this coming Monday. i wander how much i would splurge on cab fares. while im going on Gosh!, those cab drivers will be excitedly saying Hurrah!

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008 @ 6:11 AM.
im light-hearted. i guess i'm contented with what i have right now. got to stop complaining and comparing and start doing things that i enjoy doing and filling my time with it. cos as they say, life is too short.

and this morning, i was welcomed by my girl when i reach school.
girl: Teacher Ida, I love you.
me: I love you too.
girl: You know why i say i love you?
me: why?
girl: because yest i forgot to say i love you to you.

yes. without fail this girl of mine would end her day at school by saying i love you to me. no matter how her day has been under me, good or bad, she still leaves school with that satisfied smile on her face.

and i'm learning that from her. think positive. that's what i'm going to do.

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 6:29 AM.
the reason why im still not fully recovered is due to stress. stress about family, stress about work, stress about life. grrr~ when will all of these end?

sometimes i simply wish that im a tai-tai. lazing around shaking legs at home. at other times i wanted to be that career women. can i just satisfy with the median? taking the best of both worlds? no idea.

and it's now that i wish i've saved up a long time ago. at least i could have gone for a holiday somewhere to ease this hectic state of mind. pffft~

this is just soo random.

Monday, June 16, 2008 @ 7:06 AM.
it seems to be more oppositions than supporters. im confident that it's right this time round. still i will fight through the odds. no one can stop me now.

against all odds.

Sunday, June 15, 2008 @ 5:43 AM.
went to Siloso today. supposed to meet love at 0900 but reached at 0945. oops. haha. made our way to Sentosa and down to Siloso beach. reached around 10 plus. found a spot and settled down.


i had my part of breakfast of strawberry milk and some fruits and rest for awhile before heading for the sea. had a whole lots of fun with love. swimming, sitting, standing, stunt-ting (like for real) haha.


part from Siloso at around 1715 hours.



manymany thanks love for spending almost half of your day with me.

him who proposed me *chuckles*



Friday, June 13, 2008 @ 10:22 PM.
okay let's start blogging properly. as you can see from my previous posts, it's just a pathetic one-liner. why? cause i'm pathetically SICK. boo-hoo. haha. if you asked me how i am now, i'd say i'm not that sure if i'm okay. sometimes i feel fine. able to do things and stuffs and so on. but at other times, it all come back at one shot. i would feel all dizzy and naseous at one go. coughing non-stop and the pipe in my nose doesn't seem to stop running. grrr~

thanks to those who have particularly being concern about my condition. manymany thanks. and of course, thanks love.

i'd say my life now has been quite a mixed-up lately. i've been considering lots of options and opinions from others. that really makes me wonder. do i really need their opinions and judgements? can't i just make my own decisions. it's my life anyways. maybe it's due to my past that i've decided to ask for more opinions before making that final decisions. but till when? i can't be calling up people close to me every now and then. maybe i should stop being dependent on others. maybe i should just live on my life independently just as it is.

only GOD knows.

Thursday, June 12, 2008 @ 10:08 PM.
unwell. still partypartyparty. thanks love.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008 @ 5:44 AM.
oh fever please go away :(

Tuesday, June 10, 2008 @ 5:35 AM.
no voice + bad runny nose + not enough manpower = insane

Monday, June 9, 2008 @ 4:50 AM.
i came to school with just 30% of my voice.

kids in class were very concerned. one of my girls said,

Girl: Teacher Ida u must drink water. alot of water. then pass urine, then you will be ok.

haha. isn't that pure concerned? love them to bits. still i reach home with NO VOICE at all. and my throat hurts like hell.


and my mind keeps on wandering around.

Sunday, June 8, 2008 @ 5:45 AM.
she's my friend, my dance partner, my shoulder to cry on, my love.

retail therapy with huiping. but not really. just got myself a hairband. thanks love.

@ 2:57 AM.
mixed-up feeling. stuck in the middle of two roads.
which one to choose?
oh God I trust You'll guide me through. Amin.
things have been going on around me. good and bad. all is taken as a reflection from someone else's life. just like a mirror. i see them through. take it as a lesson to be learnt or just throw it away? clueless.



when the sun don't shine, the sky turns to grey.

Thursday, June 5, 2008 @ 6:44 AM.
a brand new blog.
a brand new page.
a brand new lease.

i've decided. everything's gonna change for GOOD. what's past let it just slip down memory lane. and let the present unveil itself slowly. i'm not going to rush myself in making any BIG decisions in my life as i know it'll affect lots of other people around me.

take it slow and steady.


for sure. i know what ever that has been happening, GOD has been trying to show me a glimpse of what my FUTURE would be like. and i THANK GOD for everything.

life has never been better. thank you.